Tell your heart to beat again

I have been the recipient of so many wonderful acts of kindness in the past few weeks. People have been so overwhelmingly generous towards our family. They have sacrificed their time, treasures and talents to help our family get through this difficult time and begin this journey towards renewed health. We will forever be grateful for the support we have received. You read in books and people who’ve had cancer talk about how once you have cancer, you are a different person, almost as if there’s this line in our lives that appears one day. Some idea of a pre-cancer version of ourselves and a post-cancer version of ourselves. I don’t know if I’m far enough on this journey to be able to say if this is true or not, but I think that the appreciation of kindness is one of the ways it is true. Once you have received such remarkable support, you cannot help but appreciate what others have done and find yourself looking for ways to return the kindness that has been so helpful to you, when you were in need.

So many people have been so generous towards us, we have received an overwhelming amount of support; financially, in the form of food, prayers, cards, a kind word, support bands, bringing gifts and coloring books to the girls, offering to watch the girls, visiting us, the list goes on and on. The school/day care we send the girls to has been remarkably supportive and have reflected the values of a true family. Both our employers have been so overwhelmingly supportive, flexible, and helpful to us, their values of family shine through as well. Our family and friends have been amazing! We are truly blessed to have such a great network of support. I have received gifts as well that are priceless, gifts that seems to arrive just when they are needed most. imageA shield of faith necklace, a clutching cross, 5 stones from the valley of Elah where David defeated Goliath…these gifts are so meaningful to me, simple thank you’s don’t do them justice. How do you thank someone for a gift, a card, a kind word so timely that it changes your mindset? How do you thank someone for prayers of support or a card or a kind word that arrives right on time to remind you that there are so many people that are behind you, supporting you in this journey? Please know that these gifts are appreciated and they have made a difference in my attitude, my mindset and my life. I read a quote that summarizes it well “Never underestimate the power of kindness, a single act may be the difference that adds lift that someone needs to go from falling to flying”. Gifts come in all forms, shapes and sizes. Gifts come in the form of kind words, thoughts of support, even likes on Facebook. All of these signs of support are gifts to me, and for them I am truly thankful.

Another gift I received recently was that of a song. The song below was sent to Heather and I recently by a family member that said they were thinking of us. We watched this together and of course it spoke to us. The song is called “Tell your heart to beat again” and the lyrics are great, but the story behind the song is just as important. This song, like all of the gifts and support we’ve received, has lifted me up, given me a renewed sense of strength, helped me stay positive, reminded me that I have control in this battle with cancer. This is how cancer fights, I’ve found. It fights in the mental spaces between doctor appointments, tests and physical therapy. It’s a mental giant, a Goliath, so large that the mere word Cancer holds such a powerful grip in our culture. The giant that tries to take you down by making you think you have no power. This song reminded me that we all have a choice, we all have power, because God’s grace is sufficient and God’s grace is enough. We just need to tell our hearts to beat again, to keep fighting, to keep living, to press forward in love, in faith, in hope and in Grace.

Youtube video posted above, story and lyrics written below:

There was a pastor in Ohio, who had a heart surgeon that belonged to his church. One of the things this pastor wanted to do was he wanted to see a heart surgery take place. When the day of the surgery came, they rolled the patient in, and began to cut her chest cavity open, take the heart out and they begin to repair it. One of the things they need to do is they have to restart the heart before they close. As they begin to do the procedures to start the heart, the heart wouldn’t start. Finally, the doctor did something so out of textbook, something not written down, something you really just don’t do. He got down on his knees and he said “Mrs. Johnson, this is your doctor;  we have fixed your heart, we have repaired it, there is nothing wrong with your heart, Mrs. Johnson, if you can hear me, I need you to tell your heart to beat again.” And her heart began to beat again.

“Tell Your Heart To Beat Again”

You’re shattered, like you’ve never been before

The life you knew in a thousand pieces on the floor

And words fall short in times like these, when this world drives you to your knees

You think you’re never gonna get back to the you that used to be

 

Tell your heart to beat again

Close your eyes and breathe it in

Let the shadows fall away

Step into the light of grace

Yesterday’s a closing door

You don’t live there anymore

Say goodbye to where you’ve been

And tell your heart to beat again

 

Beginning, just let that word wash over you

It’s alright now’ love’s healing hands have pulled you through

So get back up, take step one, leave the darkness, feel the sun

Cause your story’s far from over, and your journey’s just begun

 

Tell your heart to beat again

Close your eyes and breathe it in

Let the shadows fall away

Step into the light of grace

Yesterday’s a closing door

You don’t live there anymore

Say goodbye to where you’ve been

And tell your heart to beat again

 

Let every heartbreak, and every scar

Be a picture that reminds you who has carried you this far

‘Cause love sees farther than you ever could

In this moment heaven’s working

Everything for your good

 

Tell your heart to beat again

Close your eyes and breathe it in

Let the shadows fall away

Step into the light of grace

Yesterday’s a closing door

You don’t live there anymore

Say goodbye to where you’ve been

And tell your heart to beat again

Your heart to beat again

 

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